THE LIFE LEFT BEHIND

RECOLLECTIONS...

The pondering's of sleepless nights.

Fighting with my own thoughts and feelings.

Making conclusions and observations about this life.

... and the one left behind.

When you think about the past; relationships, people, happenings... Are your memories of a pleasant nature or an unpleasant nature? I have come to the conclusion that whichever of those is the case for you should tell you all you need to know about the person, relationship, or circumstance of which you are remembering.

If your recollections are mostly of a negative nature than those are, sadly, the thing's that stick out and meant most to you. If you think back on a relationship and all you can remember about it is the anguish or turmoil you felt and you cannot remember a time that you were genuinely happy, I'd say that is a pretty clear picture of what that relationship is... or was. When you cannot remember the good things, than the good things were not good enough to keep you from letting go.

Letting go... even in a negative situation, is a really hard thing to do.

Separating pieces of you from within yourself and casting them aside is painful.

But not always as painful as the memory that caused you to begin the tearing away.

So we get to decide which pain we would rather handle.

And I suppose that is different for each person.

What I have learned from my recollections and my letting go is that it does get easier. The pain eventually lessens or somehow becomes more bearable and you start to move forward. And that really is all you can ask; to be moving forward. And to learn from it all.