PAY ATTENTION AND LET GO

THE TIME HAS COME...

To pay attention to the constant deluge of sage advice and encouragement.

For one reason or another I payed very little to no attention to the constant reminders from various sources that it is time to let go. I have not wanted to let go for many reasons. One of which being that letting go means starting again, and that is simply terrifying. Or not so simply...

Also I do feel like I am owed some things. 

But I know that nothing I feel owed will ever come. So it is time.

Time to stop barely holding on because it is at least familiar. 

It is time to let go, even if that means having nothing. 

Starting at scratch. At least I am getting to start again, right?

You wouldn't think it should be so difficult to let go of negative things that are ultimately only hurting you. But you would be wrong. 

It is hard. Any form of letting go is not easy. It hurts to end something. Especially something like a relationship with someone.

Even if that relationship has only ever been negative and hurtful. 

I heard an analogy recently about why divorce is so difficult; I found it to be a wonderful, visual description.

If you take two pieces of paper and you glue them together, they become one piece of paper. But when you try to pry the two pieces apart, they don't come apart easily. They rip and tear and shred. THAT is what divorce is like. You cannot take two people and bring them together and eventually break apart without some damage and harm coming upon them. Separating two lives that had become one back into two is beyond hard. And it hurts more than words can ever describe.

Sometimes good thing's hurt. And that is unfortunate. But eventually the pain will go and new things will come. And hopefully they will be wonderful and positive and worth the former heartache. That is my hope. I hope for a better tomorrow. I hope for a brighter future. I don't want this to be the end of me. I still want my "Happily Ever After". As much of one as I can get, anyway. One day this will be in the distant past and I will hopefully be able to look back at it and say it molded me and changed me for the better. I believe that I have grown from this experience. I only hope I am not wrong...

TAKE HEART... BE STRONG!